Wednesday, June 27, 2007

our hearts are restless

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God, our weary heads
may they find solace
in the comfort of Your breast

And may the beat within
provide rhythm
for the remainder of life's quest

Our hearts are restless
til they find rest in Thee
They wander aimless
til they find rest in Thee

May our tired eyes
be satisfied
with a look upon Your face

And our weary souls
may they finally know
the reason they were made

Our hearts are restless
til they find rest in Thee
They wander aimless
til they find rest in Thee

Oh to rest
and rest secure in Thee
Oh to rest
in blessed surety

Our hearts are restless
til they find rest in Thee
They wander aimless
til they find rest in Thee


One of my all time favorite quotes is from Saint Augustine: "Oh God, Thou hast made us for Thyself and our hearts are restless 'til they find their rest in Thee."

Um...so that quote had a lot to do with this song. Maybe.

It comes from the first chapter of his Confessions. And, in my opinion, it pretty well sums up the history of mankind. Psychology, sociology, religion...again, it is only my opinion, but I believe this quote shines a great deal of light on the truth behind why we humans do what we do.

I sat down and recorded the song in one take, guitar and vocals at the same time. I usually enjoy the embellishing process...adding harmonies, piano, etc. But for whatever reason, I feel like I am done with this song. For now. I may sit back down, polish it up and add all the pretty stuff later (which, by the way, I'm open for suggestions if you've got them). But right now, this is it.

I hope you like it.

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Monday, June 25, 2007

world view

This is a video we showed at Crossings back in April. I have been wanting to post it for awhile...but because we performed the background music live, the video originally had no sound.

This weekend, I finally got around to editing up the live mix from that Sunday and adding it to the video. And now that it is YouTube ready, I can post it.

That week, we were talking about creativity...which is one of our 5 Core Values...and our belief that, regardless of what we may think about ourselves, every one of us is, indeed, creative. You may not paint, sculpt, or make music, but you have been wired with certain gifts and passions that allow you to see the world from an angle that no one else can. And our call is to take that view of God and the world, and respond by expressively pouring ourselves out.

A great example of that is found in Luke 7.

With the video, we choose to use a form of art that we had yet to use at Crossings: photography. I also tried to be as creative as I could with the display of the photography in the video.

The song is "My World View" by...believe it or not...Audio Adrenaline. We changed it up quite a bit by using banjo, acoustic guitar, melodica, piano, etc. I was pretty happy with how it turned out and will probably be posting the full song, as an mp3, in the next couple days.

All photography is by Erin Maple. She is a part of our faith community and was gracious enough to provide us with a small glimpse into her world view.

So, with out further ado...

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

something beautiful


This past Friday night, Betsy and I planned to meet at the mall after work and go to dinner. I beat her there by a half an hour, so she sent me on a mission.

My mission...which I was given no choice whether or not to accept...was to find a dress for her to wear to our friends' wedding at the end of the month. She instructed me to..."pick out something that you think I'd look good in."

Her finding a dress was the purpose of us meeting at the mall in the first place and me doing this would save time, which would allow me to eat my steak sooner. That was my line of reasoning, anyway. Betsy wanted me to do it because it would be "special" for her to wear a dress that I specifically picked out for her, knowing that I thought she looked beautiful in it.

Well...long story short...mission failed.

I'm gonna go on record and say that it can't be done. She tried on the dress, never let me see her in it, and came out of the dressing room, fully clothed and laughing.

Not only did I fail at my mission, but in searching for the dress, I was forced to do one of my least favorite things: walk around a mall. I just don't like it. Mostly because of the mothers who apparently have no problem walking around with their pre-teen daughters wearing booty shorts. I just want to walk up to these women, slap them and hand their daughters a pair of sweatpants.

But I did see something that nearly broke my heart, in the good way, while walking around the mall. I saw a middle-aged women, probably in her late 40's, whose body was quite disfigured. Not like she was in an accident, more like she was born with palsy or some other physical condition. And I'll be honest, I am ashamed to say that my first instinct was to do a double-take. I know...I am a bad person.

But when I turned again, I saw the look in her eye.

She was holding the hand of her husband, who was tall, strong, handsome and...proud. That woman was walking through the mall like she was the most beautiful woman there. And I think she might have been.

She didn't care about the stares or double-takes. I'm sure she has dealt with the gawking eyes of shallow, ignorant people, like myself, her whole like. No. It was obvious by how high she held her head: she knew she was beautiful. She knew it, because she could see it in her husband's loving eyes.

That is a picture of Christ's love. In marriage, I am to love my wife as Christ loves the church. And how exactly does Christ love the church?

He makes her beautiful.

Friday, June 15, 2007

the forgotten ways


In our Tuesday morning book club (which is currently meeting on Thursday mornings, but that is another story), we are working our way through the book The Forgotten Ways by Alan Hirsch.

Mark has mentioned it on his blog.

I just wanted to post what I thought was a pretty thought-provoking excerpt from it. Hirsch quotes Gerard Kelly:

"Experimental groups seeking to engage the Christian faith in a postmodern context will often lack the resources, profile or success record of the Boomer congregations. By definition, they are new, untried, relatively disorganized and fearful of self-promotion. They reject the corporate model of their Boomer forebears, and thus do not appear, according to existing paradigms, to be significant. But don't be fooled. Somewhere in the genesis and genius of these diverse groups is hidden the future of Western Christianity. To dismiss them is to throw away the seeds of our survival."

Hirsch then goes on to add:

"I have often had to field criticism of the Emerging Missional Church in the guise of pragmatic questions like, "Where is it working?" or dismissed in phrases like "When I see some success, I might consider it." But it IS working. The answer is right there under our noses, but we can't seem to see it because we are looking for the wrong things. If we look for certain features obvious in the Christendom paradigm (like buildings, programs, overt leaders, church growth, organization, etc.), we will miss what is really happening."

I find these thoughts interesting because I am often on both sides of the fence; sometimes inspired and excited by the Emerging Missional movement, and sometimes critical of it and asking the same questions Hirsch mentions.

I offer no real wisdom here (not that I usually do), other than a couple quotes from two very wise men for you to chew on.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

youth minister acquitted on charges of theft

A judge found Chris Brown, former Youth Minister at New Hope Church of God in Fayette County, not guilty on all six accounts of theft Thursday morning.

The charges came after Brown admittedly sold hundreds of his students CDs to local pawnshops. The CDs were collected by Brown for an end of the year event named “Smash the Trash”, in which students from his youth group would smash piles of CDs by non-Christian artists with sledgehammers. “He told us that listening to secular music would ruin our minds and lead us straight to hell”, explained one student, “so we brought in all our secular CDs and were going to smash every single one of them. Well, not every one…he said that Creed and The Fray were okay.”

From Dr. Dre to Dora the Explorer, Brown collected nearly 1,000 CDs in the weeks leading up to the event.

"Smash the Trash" was scheduled for the last weekend in May but was mysteriously canceled the day before. Parents immediately began asking for their children’s CDs back and Brown eventually confessed.

“This was not some elaborate plan.” He states, “I honestly collected the CDs in order to smash them with my students. I did not intend to sell them from the beginning. I’m not evil. I’m just weak.”

Brown goes on to explain that after hearing a sermon titled “Multiply Your Money God’s Way” by New Hope Senior Pastor, Greg Overshow, he sat in his office, dejected, trying to think of ways that he could supplement his income. “I was sitting there wracking my brain when I looked over saw the pile of boxes filled with the kids’ CDs and...and the idea just came to me. I fought the temptation for days, but with the news that my wife was pregnant again, I guess I just caved. I mean my salary here is a joke.”

Brown, 24, and his wife Melissa, 23, were married as freshman at Templeton Christian College in 2001. Melissa is currently pregnant with their 5th child.

The Browns were already having a hard time making ends meet and had reportedly missed their last two months of rent. But when asked about his large DVD collection, designer jeans and Xbox 360, Brown jovially replied, “Hey I’ve got stay relevant, right?

The students’ parents were not so light-hearted about Brown’s lack of judgment. Six separate couples pressed charges. “He used religion to manipulate our children into giving away their secular CDs and then sold them for his own profit. It is inexcusable”, one outraged parent replied. Another added, “We have spent hundreds of dollars on those CDs. He had no right to do what he did.”

The judge, however, saw it another way as he ruled in favor of the defendant, claiming that because the students willfully gave away their CDs, that they forfeited any and all legal proprietorship of them.

“I was extremely relieved with the verdict.” Brown said upon leaving court Thursday as a free man, “I was worried I was going to be locked up in some dark cell for the rest of my life. But now it looks like my future is bright and clear.”

At least the near future, anyway.

As one of Brown’s junior high students, 12 year old Brittany Mehaffey, puts it, “He told me that people who listen Kelly Clarkson CDs will go to hell. If that is true, then I wonder if people who steal Kelly Clarkson CDs from little girls and pawn them off will go to hell, too.”

Maybe. But that is something only the Ultimate Judge can decide.

Monday, June 11, 2007

a quick update...

It has officially been a week since my last post. So, I apologize to the handful of you who check my blog every couple of days and have been thinking, "Nope. Nothing new again today. Man, Bill is really slacking off."

While...yes, I am a slacker, my parents also came into town last week. So that had a lot to do with it, as well. To catch you up quickly, here is a top 10 list of my favorite things from the past week:

10. I grilled out for the first time this year...steaks and veggies (peppers, onions, zucchini). The grill needed some serious cleaning, but it was well worth it, if I do say so myself.

9. Hung out a lot with my friend, Dustin. His wife and two girls were out of town visiting family and instead of being a bachelor for the weekend, he choose Betsy and I, as well as my parents, as his surrogate family. It was fun.

8. Cook-out at Mark's house with the Crossings' leadership community. 40+ people. A lot of food. A lot of games. And yet another Golden BVD award winner (congrats Karrie).

7. Games galore. On Thursday night we played Phase 10 (won...I'm telling you, it has nothing to do with luck; I'm just that good) and Speed Scrabble (won). On Saturday we played Killer Cut-throat Croquet (lost); Bocce Ball (lost) and Corn-Hole (won...a lot)

6. Disc Golf on Saturday with my dad.

5. Lunch at Market Square with Betsy and my parents on Friday.

4. After lunch, we hit what some might consider a 'holy trinity' of sorts: Plutos (a hole in the wall Disc Golf haven on UT's campus), McKays (the biggest and best book store you have ever seen, period) and Starbucks (a small, local coffee house...you may not have heard of it).

3. On Wednesday, my friend Greg and I did a little dollar bowling and I started one of the games with...5 strikes!

2. I got to make an Apollo Creed reference during the worship set on Sunday morning. Never done that before.

1. Having my mom and dad in town. I hadn't seen them since Christmas and it was really, really good visit.

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

wonderful

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You are wonderful
Far too wonderful for me
By Your mighty hand
Beauty displayed for all to see

In Your majesty
We adore You, King
With fear and trembling
We sing...

You are wonderful
You are wonderful
For You, my heart swells
You are wonderful

You are wonderful
The sunset warming the evening sky's arc
is but the faintest drop
of the beauty breathed into my heart

In Your majesty
We adore You, King
With fear and trembling
We sing...

You are wonderful
You are wonderful
For You, my heart swells
You are wonderful


I wrote this song a number of years ago and I think I've only played it live one time. So, I suppose it is kind of a 'B-side' type of song for me...one of my more obscure. Actually, all my songs are probably considered obscure, but whatever. My attention was, for some reason, just drawn to this one day. So I decided to recorded it. And really, I'm pretty happy with the outcome.

I wrote it after being inspired by Psalm 145 and specifically verses 3-6:

"Great is the LORD and most worthy of praise;
his greatness no one can fathom.

One generation will commend your works to another;
they will tell of your mighty acts.

They will speak of the glorious splendor of your majesty,
and I will meditate on your wonderful works.

They will tell of the power of your awesome works,
and I will proclaim your great deeds."

I began to think about God's 'mighty acts' or 'wonderful works' that truly moved me. And there is one that blows me away: sunsets. I can not tell you how much I love sunsets...and quite frankly, I don't really want to because it makes me sound like a chick. But I really do. I don't understand them. Why the colors? Why the beauty? Again, I don't want to get started on this...I've literally preached a sermon about sunsets before.

So, anyway, the song was born out of the line, "the sunset warming the evening sky's arc is but the faintest drop of the beauty breathed into my heart".

We may stare at sunsets and be absolutely amazed at the beauty of it all. But I think God looks at us and says, "Yeah, sunsets are nice. I did a pretty good job with 'em, I know. But you...oh you are the jewel of my heart. You are the beauty I can't take my eyes off of."

And that...as an incredible understatement...makes God wonderful.

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